Sucker

Well, this turned out to be a busy weekend! I ended up volunteering at a Cause for Paws adoption event at PetSmart Sawmill (where my kitties are currently housed!) and then going on an adopton visit for little Apollo. He is now in a great home with some very wonderful people. They are so excited to have him. As soon as I walked in the door, the little boy took Apollo and that was the last I saw him. I have the feeling that he is going to be the little boy's cat. :)

Then that night, I went to COSI with Quinton and another couple. It was great fun. I loved it and it is nice to see friends! Then today, I spent the day with my little sister from Big Brothers Big Sisters. We played the Wii, made lunch, and watched a Harry Potter movie. We also took my pups for a walk and feed the geese across the way. We had lots of fun, and it is always hard to return her home, especially because she loves the dogs!

As for the eating, it wasn't all the great this weekend. It could have been worse and it could have been better. I definitely did not drink enough water though. That is definitely something I need to work on. I guess Tuesday will tell how well I have done. I hope I lose a little. I know that this is going to be a long journey, but I need to do it for my health.

Well, that is all for now. It is time to tackle Baxter and give him his meds.

Well, I did it. I went back to weight watchers on Tuesday night. I voted in the morning, so no worries! :)

I am the heaviest now that I have EVER been. I am completely and utterly humiliated. I have NEVER seen this number before and didn't think I would. Let's just say that I am not that far from reaching that 300 mark.

So far it is going good. Today was a tough day. I am definitely an emotional eater and today was very emotional. I had to take Baxter to the vet this morning. Last night, he urinated in front of me and it contained blood. Luckily, it was not a blockage which was what the vet originally suspected. He is on special food for 4 - 6 weeks, has to take antibiotics for two weeks and prednisone for 6 days. Any tips on pilling a cat? This is going to be fun, considering I can't use any type of food!

Claire, I think that you have a great idea. I would love to be a support group for each other. I am already on SparkPeople so just have to find you. :) I would love to have someone to kick my butt when I need it. That is part of the reason I went back to WW. I need the accountability.

OK....

So.....maybe this time wasn't so different. I do well for a few days and then fall off the wagon. I fall off the wagon often. I haven't been back on it for over a week now. Ugh. You know, maybe I am just not as mentally ready as I think I am. Or maybe I need the support of others going through the same thing. I don't know. Can someone tell me what is wrong with me?

Maybe I just have too much going on.

1. Work
2. Grad School.
3. Boyfriend (who is wonderful!)
4. Bowling
5. Project Mentor
6. Big Brothers Big Sisters
7. 2 dogs and 2 cats
8. foster kittens
9. LAC (although I missed this month :( )

I think that is about it. I also have to deal with laundry, cleaning, and all that fun stuff. Unfortunately, that stuff hasn't been happening lately.

Oh well. At least it keeps me out of trouble!!!

Class Night

I am sitting in class and asked myself, "What better time is there for an update?" Yes, I am a little bored. What can I say.

My eating is going well. I went a little over today because I let myself get to hungry this afternoon. I ended up getting a Jr. Hamburger with the Mandarian Chicken Salad that I had already planned for dinner. Oh well. It was good and it is over now. I am full, but very thirsty! I need something to drink, but can't just get up during class. I am sure we will have a break soon.

Just wanted to write for some reason. Nothing new to really report.

Weekend Visit & NKOTB

Although it was painful, I recorded my food choices from Friday, the NKOTB concert day. Let's just say it wasn't pretty. At least I danced! It is OK though. I know that it was a special occasion and it is OK to splurge. What's important is that I wrote it all down.

My mom was nice enough to come watch my dogs for me while I went to Cleveland overnight. I have to say that my Mom is one of the nicest. I know that I can count on her. She just started weight watchers so we have been trading journals. It is nice to have her support.

The NKOTB concert was AMAZING!!! I want to see them again. It was sooooo much fun.

Returning.

After about 7 months, I have decided to return. I have a plan now, and this time will be different.

First, I am just recording what I eat. I am not going to "count" calories just yet. I want to analyze what I am doing and why I eat at certain times. Then, I will start counting slowly at first. I will eat at the top of the recommended scale for weightloss. Finally, I will start adding in exercise slowly.

I will post when I can to keep myself honest. :)

Hi All,

Sorry it has been so long. I have no excuse. I feel off the wagon HARD. I have not been eating well or exercising. I also have been drinking a lot socially, which is a HUGE amount of calories. I do not know why, but I just don't feel like I deserve this or something. I do deserve it though. I am entitled to a healthy body. I am entitled to stop sitting on the sidelines while life passes me by. In my mind, I know this. However, it is convincing my heart and soul. Silly, huh?

I do plan on getting back. I need to look at my options and decide where to go from there. If anyone has any suggestions, let me know.

See you again soon.

Michelle