Starting Over

I have been horrible at keeping this journal as well as horrible at changing my life style. For instance, today I had a McChicken biscuit with two hash browns for breakfast and seasame chicken with an egg roll for lunch. Now isn't that awful? I need to realize that I am literally killing myself. My health is literally declining. I already have high blood pressure. It is only a matter of time before diabetes, heart disease, fatty liver, and everything else joins the mix. Today a new study came out directly linking obesity to six different types of cancers, two of which my grandmothers had. Talk about frightening. What is it going to take to make me realize I need to change? I just do not get it. I guess having my soon to be ex tell me that he wasn't attracted to me anymore wasn't enough. Or maybe feeling the elevator bounce when I step on. Or maybe being embarassed to sit on an airplane because I am crowding the person next to me. Or worrying about breaking a chair at a restaurant when sitting at a table instead of a booth. What is it going to take? An actual heart attack or stroke? My breathing is already more labored due to the asthma and excess weight.

Anyway, that was my vent for the day. Now I am off to hand out this terrible candy to all the trick or treaters. I hope that they aren't like me. I would hide and sneak food and candy when I was younger. Food became my comfort.

OK. That is enough. Have a good day!

I didn't keep my promise to exercise. I did take my shoes and workout clothes. However, I hung out with a lot of coworkers and drank too many margaritas and beers. You don't even want to know about Tuesday night! It was a lot of fun though, and it reminded me that I need to get out more.

When I returned home to my house, I had my favorite "kids" to greet me. I missed my puppies and kitties! It was still sad to return to an empty house though. Oh well. One day and one weekend at a time. That is what I keep telling myself. It will take a while to heal completely. I will have my bad days and good days.

Anyway, I am getting back on the scale tomorrow. I know that I will be starting all over again, but at least I am doing it. Today I plan to eat somewhat healthy. There is no more ice cream in the house. That helps!

Saturday

Although I have a limited readership, I thought I would inform you that I will be MIA for a while. I am going on a business trip. Believe it or not, I am taking along my sneakers and hope to get some treadmill time in.

Well, enjoy your week! I am looking forward to mine. :)

Brazenhead

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